My Drive. My Inspiration.

Don’t be fooled. It’s not as easy as it looks.

I’ve posted enough photos on the internet to provide answers (or even just to jot down my learnings and observations) for readers who probably wonder what drives me to shoot. So I figured I’d write something up for ya’ll.

Nature – For long time readers, there is no doubt that most of my photos are almost always nature-centered (is that even a word?). It’s the smallest details that make the biggest impression on me: the different shades of green in the trees, the 5PM sunlight hitting the high grass atop a hill, the gentle motion the waves make. You know where I’m getting at.

Light – Yes, light. As a photographer, my best friend is the sun (also, sunscreen). I need to know its every move. I like to observe how it shines down on things uniquely each day. The contrast light creates with shadows can give you so many ideas.

000030

Walking – I’ve always liked the feeling of just walking from one destination to another whether intentional or not. It gives me this sense of freedom. It also allows me to practice my creative vision and observe the streets, people, and light (photography is all about light and I can’t stress this enough). It’s a good practice to evaluate your eyes and its creativity to mentally capture shots you think are worth photographing.

000032

The Goal – You can’t want to excel in something and not have an end goal in mind. No matter how long it takes, as long as you’re moving means you are closer to your goal. Don’t let that dream fade away, people!

000034

Photos taken with my Olympus OM-1 and a YKL 100. Processed  by Sunny16 Lab.

 

My Boyfriend – Okay, I know what you’re thinking, what a mushy post *closes tab*. Hear me out though. He’s been the one person who never doubted my ability to photograph. The one person who pushed me when even I decided to give up on my dream to become a photographer and there really are no words to thank him for what he’s done for me. Besides that, he’s got this exquisite mind. He hopes to be a director one day and his inspirations inspire me as well! His creativity bleeds onto me, the way mine bleeds onto him. I guess we complement each other that way.

There are so many more things that inspire me and my photography, but these are the five main ones that really push me to create and experiment with my art everyday even when I’m in hopeless rut!

What drives you to shoot?

Follow my blog with Bloglovin

Accept To Progress

This egocentric world has taken over our outlook in life. We only consider our individual thoughts and actions correct; what everything else thinks, says, or does is wrong, unless we approve of it. And how fucked up have we become?

000018

Why can’t we just accept each other for who we are and what we continue to become? Why are we all so afraid to understand? To fall in love with new things? What is stopping us from loving each other? Where is all the hate coming from?

000019

000020

How can we allow this fire continue to slowly burn this urge to break free from the shackles this society has kept us in? How do we break free? Am I doing this alone? Is there anyone else with me? If and when we do get out, are we all free for the right purpose?

000021

Photos taken with my Olympus OM-1 and developed by Sunny16 Lab.

Capturing Nothing

000002000014000012000005

Have you ever felt something that meant absolutely nothing? Something that was really nothing? Under the spotlight of darkness, you forget it all – the pain, the sorrow, the wrong choices that brought you to where you are today. Then you wonder, why am I feeling the way I am? I brought all of this onto myself without even realizing I did till now.

Caught up in myself, I forget it all. Or at least I try to.

 

Mamiya 645 1000s | Fujifilm Neopan 100

Life is Good

000030

I won’t lie, March was awful. Bad, bad, bad. I have trouble getting through that month every single year. I can’t find the reason behind my struggle with said month, but I find that it has a lot to do with the change in weather. I guess, my body likes to be in its cold February state. As soon as April comes marching through the door, I swear, I become the happiest most positive version of myself and my entire being is in full acceptance of the desert like heat this country has to offer me.

Not realizing the dark pit I was in last month, my emotions were going haywire as if my cords were loose or unplugged – I felt broken. Yes, I know, it sounds quite serious when I put it that way, and no I was not PMS-ing. I was simply feeling sad. Uncommonly sad. I imagine that it was me mourning the loss of my college professor, mentor and dear friend, Danilo Franco, who had passed earlier in the year. I shrugged my grief off – putting it aside so I could be “strong” for him. What good did that do?

000025

In spite of it all, a new month has come along with clearer skies and brighter stars, and I am left in renewal of myself. Life is more than I could wish for. It is more than I could ever imagine. The people I love continue to understand and support me regardless of how inconsiderate I can be sometimes. Their patience is more than I could ever ask for. These people build me up to become the person the universe designed me to be. I am molded by those who surround me with their kindness. I am blessed because of them and their belief in me, my talent, and creativity.

Life in itself is beautiful as it is and being able to give you entirety to fully live it makes it all the more beautiful. Tell me, how is life good to you?

000029

For all photos above, I used my Olympus OM-1 camera with a zoom lens (not sure which lens it was; Ill update this post once I get home to see the lens). The film I used was a YKL C100. 

I shot these photos in the middle of the day and I like to under expose my photos as I feel like this balances out the brightness the sun gives. I also look for subjects that get hit by the sun in an angular way (does that make sense to you?) just so that I have a good equal amount of shadows and highlights, plus a great middle ground for the midtones. 

If you have any other questions as to how I shot these photos, leave a comment down below and I would gladly answer them!

I am woman. I am strength.

1

000017

We are our own entity, our own mind, our own soul. We have a voice too loud to ignore, so speak up.

000024

000020

We are not to be shamed on by society for we are society. We are the people. We matter.

000019

000021

Women will not be chained down by irrational proclamations, made by the small-minded few.  We will do what we want when we want it and how we want it.

You are woman. You are strength.


Nikon N55 | Fujicolor 100
Photography: Iza Berenguer
Model: Dominique Berenguer

Testing – 1, 2, 3…

In my previous blog post, I mentioned that I recently got a new camera – a Mamiya 645 1000s – my first ever medium format camera. I also mentioned that I haven’t had  roll processed yet due to chicken pox. But to my luck, my oh so very helpful boyfriend dropped by the other day and took care of the roll for me! Now before I go ahead and share with you a few photos, I would just like to give a disclaimer: I need new glasses. Almost all the shot are out focus. Nevertheless, see how I tried and failed at this.

kodak_portra_160_12-16-05kodak_portra_160_12-16-06kodak_portra_160_12-16-11kodak_portra_160_12-16-07kodak_portra_160_12-16-01kodak_portra_160_12-16-02kodak_portra_160_12-16-08

Mamiya 645 1000s | Kodak Portra 160

Life Update

People, we are a couple of weeks till the end of 2016. Unbelievable. I feel like the last five (5) years of my life has just breezed through, you know? And my 22nd birthday literally just leaped past me! I will never really know the change it’s brought me. *sigh* Just kidding, it brought me chicken pox. Yep, chicken pox. With all jokes aside, I really haven’t been posting lately for a number of reasons which I can tell you all about in a day, but mainly because I have been crazy busy with work. Nevertheless, I’d like to share with you a little life update since the last time I posted.

kodak-200_0024It was a pretty warm day, that day. But it wasn’t warm in an uncomfortable state. It was the kind of warm you feel when the sun’s soft 7am rays hit your face to wake you in the morning. It was the kind of warm you feel when you hug your lover under the blankets during a cold rainy night. It’s the kind of warm you feel when summer dances hand in hand with spring.

I bought a butt-load of 35mm film. This is pretty much the cause of my bank account’s near death experience. I bought about (6) rolls of film yet feel extra sad because my Olympus OM-1 is in desperate need of a good cleaning. I’ve had it for over 2 years now and have not ever had it cleaned from the time of purchase.

I got a new camera! If you follow me on Twitter and Instagram (@isbl_b for both platforms; follow, follow, follow!) you would know that I recently got a Mamiya 645 1000s – my first ever medium format camera! I’ve been eyeing this baby for a couple of months and thanks to a special friend, I finally have it in my hands! I have yet to have processed my first ever 120mm roll of film (I used a Kodak Portra 160). And because I am in no state of leaving my home without terrorizing citizens around the area with how I look, s=it seems like my test roll will have to wait this one out.

I’ve been binge watching Ghost Adventures. We all have our guilty pleasures and mine just happens to be easily accessed thru Youtube accompanied by sleepless nights and dessert for two…. past midnight.

I have yet to tell more but it saddens me that I can’t support my words with pictures.

 

 

Olympus OM-1 | Kodak Colorplus 200

Quintessential Living

I’ve only just settled into the cold hard bed that is November, and already, I am bewildered by what this month has brought and what it has yet to bring. (Still a little hungover from October’s happenings but, hey, I’ll get over it.) Now, in spite of the challenges ahead, I am quite hopeful of the opportunities I have yet to receive for myself. I continue to question the abilities I hold as a being on this planet. Am I enough? Am I at my best? Am I giving too much? Regardless of what the answers may be, surprisingly, I’ve got a feeling that I might just be on the right track.

000034-2

When questioning life’s Jack-in-a-box moments, the film The Secret Life of Walter Mitty always come to mind. It’s not that I hold a secret life behind what I wish for my readers to perceive of me. No. Thinking about it now maybe I should create a secret life. Ala Vivian Maier perhaps? Although…. what good will this bring? Also, I haven’t figured out how this would benefit my already messed up state as a 21-soon-to-be-22-year-old living in 2016. This topic most definitely deserves an individual post.

000036-2

I have not found the quintessence of life. I am still on a voyage to discover it but I do feel like I’m on the right track to finding it! I urge you to do the same.

000035-2

000033-2

“What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other?”

 – George Eliot

Olympus OM-1 | Kodak Ultima 1oo