A Shot In The Dark

Photography never came to me as a calling. It simply was a hobby done due to its availability at the time I gave it a go. Never in a million years did I imagine it to turn out the way it has in my life today. Of course, after giving it much thought, practice, and time, today is a far cry from where I truly want to be.

It was a big risk what I did and I don’t believe regret has ever fallen upon me because of the decision I made. I do wish I could’ve realized it sooner.

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To all those who ever believed, to all those who ever trusted, to all those who still remember, thank you. It wasn’t an easy decision, it still isn’t, but you help me get by.

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You give me hope. You give me a reason to live. You give me guidance. I thank you all.

Photos taken with my Olympus OM-1 with a Kodak Portra 400
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Life is Good

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I won’t lie, March was awful. Bad, bad, bad. I have trouble getting through that month every single year. I can’t find the reason behind my struggle with said month, but I find that it has a lot to do with the change in weather. I guess, my body likes to be in its cold February state. As soon as April comes marching through the door, I swear, I become the happiest most positive version of myself and my entire being is in full acceptance of the desert like heat this country has to offer me.

Not realizing the dark pit I was in last month, my emotions were going haywire as if my cords were loose or unplugged – I felt broken. Yes, I know, it sounds quite serious when I put it that way, and no I was not PMS-ing. I was simply feeling sad. Uncommonly sad. I imagine that it was me mourning the loss of my college professor, mentor and dear friend, Danilo Franco, who had passed earlier in the year. I shrugged my grief off – putting it aside so I could be “strong” for him. What good did that do?

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In spite of it all, a new month has come along with clearer skies and brighter stars, and I am left in renewal of myself. Life is more than I could wish for. It is more than I could ever imagine. The people I love continue to understand and support me regardless of how inconsiderate I can be sometimes. Their patience is more than I could ever ask for. These people build me up to become the person the universe designed me to be. I am molded by those who surround me with their kindness. I am blessed because of them and their belief in me, my talent, and creativity.

Life in itself is beautiful as it is and being able to give you entirety to fully live it makes it all the more beautiful. Tell me, how is life good to you?

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For all photos above, I used my Olympus OM-1 camera with a zoom lens (not sure which lens it was; Ill update this post once I get home to see the lens). The film I used was a YKL C100. 

I shot these photos in the middle of the day and I like to under expose my photos as I feel like this balances out the brightness the sun gives. I also look for subjects that get hit by the sun in an angular way (does that make sense to you?) just so that I have a good equal amount of shadows and highlights, plus a great middle ground for the midtones. 

If you have any other questions as to how I shot these photos, leave a comment down below and I would gladly answer them!

Testing – 1, 2, 3…

In my previous blog post, I mentioned that I recently got a new camera – a Mamiya 645 1000s – my first ever medium format camera. I also mentioned that I haven’t had  roll processed yet due to chicken pox. But to my luck, my oh so very helpful boyfriend dropped by the other day and took care of the roll for me! Now before I go ahead and share with you a few photos, I would just like to give a disclaimer: I need new glasses. Almost all the shot are out focus. Nevertheless, see how I tried and failed at this.

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Mamiya 645 1000s | Kodak Portra 160

Life Update

People, we are a couple of weeks till the end of 2016. Unbelievable. I feel like the last five (5) years of my life has just breezed through, you know? And my 22nd birthday literally just leaped past me! I will never really know the change it’s brought me. *sigh* Just kidding, it brought me chicken pox. Yep, chicken pox. With all jokes aside, I really haven’t been posting lately for a number of reasons which I can tell you all about in a day, but mainly because I have been crazy busy with work. Nevertheless, I’d like to share with you a little life update since the last time I posted.

kodak-200_0024It was a pretty warm day, that day. But it wasn’t warm in an uncomfortable state. It was the kind of warm you feel when the sun’s soft 7am rays hit your face to wake you in the morning. It was the kind of warm you feel when you hug your lover under the blankets during a cold rainy night. It’s the kind of warm you feel when summer dances hand in hand with spring.

I bought a butt-load of 35mm film. This is pretty much the cause of my bank account’s near death experience. I bought about (6) rolls of film yet feel extra sad because my Olympus OM-1 is in desperate need of a good cleaning. I’ve had it for over 2 years now and have not ever had it cleaned from the time of purchase.

I got a new camera! If you follow me on Twitter and Instagram (@isbl_b for both platforms; follow, follow, follow!) you would know that I recently got a Mamiya 645 1000s – my first ever medium format camera! I’ve been eyeing this baby for a couple of months and thanks to a special friend, I finally have it in my hands! I have yet to have processed my first ever 120mm roll of film (I used a Kodak Portra 160). And because I am in no state of leaving my home without terrorizing citizens around the area with how I look, s=it seems like my test roll will have to wait this one out.

I’ve been binge watching Ghost Adventures. We all have our guilty pleasures and mine just happens to be easily accessed thru Youtube accompanied by sleepless nights and dessert for two…. past midnight.

I have yet to tell more but it saddens me that I can’t support my words with pictures.

 

 

Olympus OM-1 | Kodak Colorplus 200

Quintessential Living

I’ve only just settled into the cold hard bed that is November, and already, I am bewildered by what this month has brought and what it has yet to bring. (Still a little hungover from October’s happenings but, hey, I’ll get over it.) Now, in spite of the challenges ahead, I am quite hopeful of the opportunities I have yet to receive for myself. I continue to question the abilities I hold as a being on this planet. Am I enough? Am I at my best? Am I giving too much? Regardless of what the answers may be, surprisingly, I’ve got a feeling that I might just be on the right track.

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When questioning life’s Jack-in-a-box moments, the film The Secret Life of Walter Mitty always come to mind. It’s not that I hold a secret life behind what I wish for my readers to perceive of me. No. Thinking about it now maybe I should create a secret life. Ala Vivian Maier perhaps? Although…. what good will this bring? Also, I haven’t figured out how this would benefit my already messed up state as a 21-soon-to-be-22-year-old living in 2016. This topic most definitely deserves an individual post.

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I have not found the quintessence of life. I am still on a voyage to discover it but I do feel like I’m on the right track to finding it! I urge you to do the same.

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“What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other?”

 – George Eliot

Olympus OM-1 | Kodak Ultima 1oo

A Lack of Prismatic Thoughts

I don’t recall  ever avoiding colors as a child, and I bet you don’t either. Our thoughts filled with the utmost brilliance of hues and tones that express all these emotions that leave you carefree at the end of each day. Yet the older we become, the harder it is to run the color-creating factory you have inside you. Envy, regret, and sadness introduce themselves as loving beings, yet strip you of every tone you have ever spewed out from your head. Brights are now a shade of charcoal, pastels are now a mushy gray, and you’re left asking yourself, “Why?”

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Olympus OM-1 | Kodak Colorplus 200

Life Would Be Dream

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“I desire to be locked in a quiet room, lying on a mattress, and reading this book. Perhaps even under one hour, preferably with you.”

I came across this quote whilst scrolling through my Twitter timeline an hour before I got off work the other day. I couldn’t help but want this desire; a thirst for this sense of peace. I guess the question now is, where do we find this “peace”? Is it out there? And if so, where? Is it reachable? Should I look for it or should I make it happen? These are questions that continue to resound in my head. I’ve been wondering for years and still left with nothing.

All I desire is happiness. I used to think that happiness was found in a place or sourced from another being – preferably someone with I’d have an emotional attachment with – but one day, without being struck by change, I realized that it was just a state. A state you can jump in and out of in which none of it is an obligation nor should is it a default substitution of emptiness when people question your emotional state. We all have different perceptions of happiness and how it resonates within us. Differing in effect for each and everyone of us. We shouldn’t try too hard to find happiness based on someone else’s experience on it. Nor should you, reader, pressure yourself into finding happiness when it has clearly left the building.

I guess the question now is, have found happiness?

Well, I think I might just have.

Olympus OM-1 | Kodak Colorplus 200

Hey, it’s me again.

Countless are the times I’ve had to introduce myself online – each of it reminiscent of the get-to-know-me portion at the beginning of each class in a new term. Nevertheless, here I am for the nth time. I’ve done a few blogs here and there – none of which have satisfied me enough to stick to it, hence, the reason you’re reading this. I’d like to tweak this introduction a bit. Less words, more pictures. Let this blog serve as my self introduction – never ending and constantly changing.

I’m Iza. I’m a photographer who graduated from fashion design school. And so, hello, dear reader. Thank you for being here at this moment. I ask that you be patient and enjoy a fruitful life journey with me.

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Olympus OM-1 | Kodak Ultima 100